24.08.2014

Hellooooo

Miru desu.


this is gonna be quite a long post (｀・ω・´)

with lots of camwhoring too (｀∀´)

I don't even know where should I start hahaha

okay...

1. my fav subject ever - HAIR (°∀°)b

let me start from that maybe?

I keep on trying to do a proper sujimori, however I always fail lol I need to learn a good technique from somewhere (｡-人-｡) I've seen tons of tutorials and I've been trying to copy them but mehh... luckily, I've got more hair inspi than just sujimori! I will show you them at the end of this post ヽ(*・ω・)人(・ω・*)ノ

2. love?

last week I went to the club with my friends from work. only because one of them were moving to Bristol and wanted the last "girls night out". okay, I thought there's nothing to lose anyways. I didn't REALLY feel like going tho... I don't like club music, I don't dance, I don't wear girly clothing etc. (;^ω^A
anyways, in short: I met there a guy. a really cute Chinese guy. we exchanged phone numbers and met on sunday. everything was perfect, it was the first date in my life! but... I don't know why (I seriously don't know WHY, I wish to know tho!!!!!!) it wasn't okay for me. everything was nice, he is a wonderful person, it's not like he did anything bad to me... and still I felt it's not right. with lots of guilt I had to tell him that I'm sorry, but I just can't go on another date. I really want to stay in touch with him but only as his friend tho. everybody keeps asking WHY. but I will say that again: I DON'T KNOW WHY. I don't know WHAT happened. there must be something wrong with me.
now I know one thing - it's not the boyfriend I want. I want my FRIENDS... I miss and need my friends to go out with! not on a date, just normally. I miss having a FRIEND to just go out with, to have fun with, to talk about guys or whatever, to go to jrock concerts with.
yes, one date was enough to prove me that I guess.
I think I want to stay single as long as possible (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ

3. work

I need to change my job. I want to go on a transfer.... it's too hard to talk about to be honest. too annoying. I'm just tired. ヽ(`Д´)ノ

ps.
I was sick this week and I got myself this little thing as a treat orz

well...

that's pretty much it (o^-')b
I'm gonna show you some of my latest inspi pics (*￣Oﾉ￣*)
btw, I want new piercings!!!! and new tattoo!!!! so badly o(TωT )