self-tanning?

Hello my dears :3
I actually wanted to ask you a question ;D it might sound silly but I'm really curious about that...
I can't actually get a normal tan. my skin tone is just.... weird and it doesn't tan (o.ó)' besides, I have problem with varicose veins ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Varicose_veins ; PL: żylaki)... it's just an early stage but both my parents have problems with that so I know it can get worse in my case too :7
what's more, you can't do many things when you have that problem, like TANNING for example >.<
but I want to be tanned D: ! I love sun beds (;_;)' .... but... what to do if I can't let my legs being exposed to the UV rays? any ideas HOW to do that (o.o); ??? shall I lay down on the sun bed in my pants or what xD'
lol, stupid post, I know.

love you,
Miru

tanning time! お誕生日おめでとうございますDieさん!!!!!!!!

hello hello~!

well, as you already know I want to get some tan x: so I started yesterday with my fav self tanning lotion and bronzing balm (^3^)

yeahhh :D !

I love them <3 hihi

but... I want better effects so I'm gonna try again with the tanning beds... >.>;

10 minutes a week... I hope it won't be too much for my skin and I will FINALLY get at least... beige? (;_;)'

*as white as possible*

hello, UVA :"D

I also bought this today...

I know it's for normal-to-dark skin >.<;

I don't use those for pale skin because they make it... gold.

and I want BEIGE! BEIGEEEE! 

so yeah... x:

also made new gel nails yesterday x:

I don't like doing them by myself because it's just... hard XD

random food porn x:

I started eating like that everyday. my EVERY dinner looks like that!

I hope it will help me lose some weight (T^T);

AAAAAAAAAND

お誕生日おめでとうございますＤｉｅさん！！！！！

(^_______^)