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Thursday, 13 October 2011
WARNING! personal post!

So again, I'm going to write something from my social life... and actually about NO-social life.

I'm 21, studying, having friends and my best besttttt friend (we live in different cities now 'cause I moved to Warsaw because of my studies...). I have loving parents, funny doggie and a hamster with a CHARACTER (totally, lol). but still, I feel so fucking lonely. 99% of my friends are taken. it's okay, I really don't mind it and I'm happy if they are happy too. but it seems like they don't have time for anyone besides their loved-ones. When I go out with them, I feel like some outsider, almost invisible person. some of my friends lately started to go out with other people, so again - I'm alone at home, wasting my time and waiting for night to just go to sleep. it makes me feel really sad... I'll make myself clear: I DO understand that people have their own lives. They study, work, date, go out with people - I UNDERSTAND and I don't get angry with them 'cause of that! they don't have to spend with me  AND ONLY WITH ME like 24/7. 
besides, I don't have any gyaru friends here, and I so wish I had them! *SIGHS*

I feel like shit :7 I dunno if I should or not, but I feel like that, honestly. sometimes it seems like some people prefer to go out with others 'cause they can spend more money on fun. I can't. I'm not going to go to my parents and ask them for more money just because of that. I'm not a wealthy person. does it mean I'm not worth to spend time with? I don't know anymore...


5 comments:

  1. Yep! I feel exacly the same way. People in my school have IPads, IPhones or other super hi-tech bullcrap. They wear fashonable clothes, and they always look down on everybody else because of money. So I... I feel depresed. Am I not good enough to be their friend?

    But! ( ◔ ౪◔)
    In that situation I would probably ask my parents for more money and say: "Give me more money because I want to have friends" ... (^^") *shame* even that I know that you can't buy everything with money (especially real frendship)
    But I think many people do it my way.
    You impressed me because You have shown, money isn't the most important thing for you and this makes You a very NAISU GAL (^_~)

    Just a little patience, and You will find a gyaru true friend ( ◜‿◝ )

    I keep my fingers crossed
    lots of love,
    N_M

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  2. A może poszukaj pracy na weekendy? Często dają ogłoszenie, że potzrebują osoby tylko na te 2-3 dni. Albo nie wiem ulotki rozdawaj, na promocje chodź jako hostessa? Zawsze jakaś kasa wpadnie, którą potem możesz wydać na coś ze swojej wish list *O*
    Nie martw się życie singla nie jest takie złe, wiem coś o tym, ale fakt, czasem człowiek zaczyna odczuwać pewne braki...

    Też nie znam żadnej polskiej gyaru, ale zawsze jestem otwarta na nowe znajmości.
    Może jakieś gyaru meeting, huh? ^O^

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  3. @ Nevel Morio
    same same, especially because I'm in "Polish-Japanese institution of computer technologies" so we have many manyyyyy informatics there @_@; and many rich kids too. gah, I feel like an outsider lol >.> but I can't ask my parents for that ne... they work so hard, my conscience wouldn't let me :3 thank you so much for your kind words! <3333 I will try my best :D !

    @adasama
    myślałam o tym, ale niestety nie mam odpowiedniego wyglądu (kolczyki, tatuaże, WŁOSY o.O; ) i moi rodzice by chyba mnie zabili XD bo cały czas mówią, że do pracy pójdę po studiach i mam się skupić na razie na licencjacie. dorabiam sobie avonem X"D i chcę robić te przeklęte tipsy x": co do bycia singlem, to jestem nim od zawsze (no dobra, kłamię, od przedszkola ;D ) i w sumie mi to nie przeszkadza xD denerwujący jest dla mnie tylko fakt, gdy ludzie nie mogą się od siebie odkleić nawet na jeden dzień ._." ... miał być me2 Kyandee Gal w sierpniu, ale nie wypaliło >< chyba nikomu nigdy nie pasują żadne terminy (T~T);

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  4. Avon też jest dobrym sposobem na dorobienie sobie pieniążków :)

    Trzeba ustalić kolejny w takim razie, ja chętnie się zjawię i poznam inne gyaru ^O^

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  5. nom, takie małe kieszonkowe zawsze wpadnie (^^)v

    no, byłoby super! :D sama bardzo bym chciała zrobić to me2, w końcu Kyandee Gal to pierwsze polskie gal circle, a nawet spotkania nie było (-_-); ale niestety... jak wszyscy rozsiani po Polsce, to ciężko jest wszystkim dogodzić :c

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