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Thursday, 13 October 2011
WARNING! personal post!
So again, I'm going to write something from my social life... and actually about NO-social life.
I'm 21, studying, having friends and my best besttttt friend (we live in different cities now 'cause I moved to Warsaw because of my studies...). I have loving parents, funny doggie and a hamster with a CHARACTER (totally, lol). but still, I feel so fucking lonely. 99% of my friends are taken. it's okay, I really don't mind it and I'm happy if they are happy too. but it seems like they don't have time for anyone besides their loved-ones. When I go out with them, I feel like some outsider, almost invisible person. some of my friends lately started to go out with other people, so again - I'm alone at home, wasting my time and waiting for night to just go to sleep. it makes me feel really sad... I'll make myself clear: I DO understand that people have their own lives. They study, work, date, go out with people - I UNDERSTAND and I don't get angry with them 'cause of that! they don't have to spend with me AND ONLY WITH ME like 24/7.
besides, I don't have any gyaru friends here, and I so wish I had them! *SIGHS*
I feel like shit :7 I dunno if I should or not, but I feel like that, honestly. sometimes it seems like some people prefer to go out with others 'cause they can spend more money on fun. I can't. I'm not going to go to my parents and ask them for more money just because of that. I'm not a wealthy person. does it mean I'm not worth to spend time with? I don't know anymore...
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